Comments on: April 23, 2008

By: Audrey

Audrey — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 21:04:40 +0000

I am so sorry for your loss. A friend of mine referred me to your site because of the similiarities in our situatuions. I also lost my boy/girl twins after my boy pPROMd at 21 weeks. I was on bed rest for 2 weeks and then out of nowhere I went into labour and lost my son a few hours later. The next day my daughter arrived and she passed away shortly after her birth. This happened just a few months ago, May 2008, and the pain is so fresh and so raw that somedays I don’t think I can go on. Your blog has been so fascinating to read for me as I did not get the opportunity to celebrate any milestones with my babies. My due date is approaching soon and I hope that I can handle it as well as you have. I think I will spend it in their fully decorated room and finally open the box of mementos the hospital gave me and think about all the what would have beens.
I hope you are coping well and managing to live life, although a different one now. Please feel free to contact me if you ever want to talk to someone that knows the pain you are going through and wishes just like you that I had two screaming babies wanting my attention right now but instead I have nothing to do but try and deal with the pain.

By: Brandy

Brandy — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 17:53:29 +0000

I came across your blog thru another and I have just spent the better part of my morning reading your blog . I was so sad to read about your loss of your beautiful Lennox and Zoe. I will pray your family in my prayers. I hope the future brings you love and peace.

Brandy

By: Joyce

Joyce — Thu, 29 May 2008 23:49:41 +0000

Hugs to you and your family. I’m sending you good thoughts and prayers.

take care,
joyce

By: Lori

Lori — Thu, 29 May 2008 20:52:35 +0000

Zoe…you and your brother and your parents have drawn together an entire community. That’s a lot of good you did in a very short time.

Peace.

By: Jenni

Jenni — Thu, 29 May 2008 18:03:21 +0000

I just wanted to say that I got your link from Mel. I have spent the last 3 hours reading through the main blog and then Zoe’s blog. I couldn’t tear myself away. You have a wonderful gift of expression. I am grateful to have had the chance to read it. I am very passionate about the march of dimes as well because of my sister.

I also just realized that you live in TX, Fort Worth no doubt. Fort Worth is my home (southside) to be exact and then moved to Crowley. I now live in Mississippi on the Gulf Coast. I saw Cook childrens and it blew me away. You see my youngest sister was born at 24 weeks and lived there for 6 months. They were wonderful and the NICU was absolutley great to her. I can remember, even as a worried and scared 6 year old how the nurses were so wonderful to my family. She went thru the ringer and finally got to come home.

I pray for you and your family. I know this has got to be the worst thing anyone could imagine. I had a miscarriage at 11 weeks and it was horrible but you have sustaned longer. I am in awe of you. You are a hero to many. The work that you are doing on your blog and on this blog for Zoe is amazing. Thank you does not express my feelings for you right now. Please know that there is a community out here that loves you from a distance and some that are closer to you. We are here if you ever need anything. Take care of yourself and Shannon and my prayers are with you.

By: Amy

Amy — Thu, 29 May 2008 15:32:20 +0000

I have no good words just sending you good thoughts for today…it’s a hard one, I know. Thinking of you all.

By: Cece

Cece — Thu, 29 May 2008 12:55:55 +0000

What a wonderful tribute. {hugs}

By: Kathy V

Kathy V — Thu, 29 May 2008 12:43:53 +0000

Continued hugs for you and your husband as you remember Lennox and zoe.

By: emily

emily — Thu, 29 May 2008 12:33:21 +0000

my heart goes out to you

By: Brandygirl

Brandygirl — Thu, 29 May 2008 01:46:57 +0000

I feel your sadness and I think, I’ve been hit by a truck cuz I feel so sad too.

I am so sorry but I’d just like to dedicate this poem to you:

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked “What makes a Mother?”
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby’s not with you?

Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there’s no need to stay.

I just don’t understand this God
I want my baby here

He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
“We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillows where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don’t be sad today
I’m your baby and I am here”

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they’ll stay
They’ll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they’ll be at the gates for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother
It’s the feeling in your heart
It’s the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mom.

I have you in my prayers.