3:30pm Jan. 24, 2008

I don’t have any words left.

My Zoë died this afternoon.

We don’t know why yet.

My Zoë is gone and my Lennox is gone and I don’t know if anything will ever fill this hole.

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  1. 1

    kim said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 7:16 pm

    Shock and tears. My thoughts and prayers and are with you.

  2. 2

    Jenn Michelle said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 7:24 pm

    I am heartbroken for you. This all so fucking unfair. Your sweet babies will be forever in my heart.

  3. 3

    Michelle said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 7:25 pm

    I’m praying for you. I am so sorry this has happened.

  4. 4

    Stacie said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 7:32 pm

    I am so so sorry.

  5. 5

    Jamie said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 7:47 pm

    I can’t even think of what to say. I’m so unbelievable sorry.

  6. 6

    lisa4011 said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 8:01 pm

    We love you. I am so very sorry.

  7. 7

    barbara said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 8:08 pm

    My heart is broken…..xxxooo

  8. 8

    katie wilson said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 8:21 pm

    i love you…

  9. 9

    Heidi said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 8:55 pm

    Really there are no words. Please know that I am just so very sorry.

  10. 10

    Neenie said,

    January 24, 2008 @ 10:59 pm

    I cannot stop crying for you I am in such shock. This has been so cruel to you and your family and my words cannot fix it but please just know that I am so extremely sorry and devestated for you and I cry for you.
    I don’t have words.

  11. 11

    Peggy said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 5:33 am

    I wish I knew what to say. My heart aches for you and Shannon. I am so very sorry for your loss.

  12. 12

    Audra said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 8:22 am

    My heart breaks for you, I wish I had the words but there truly are none. Your little miracles will forever be in the hearts of so many people.

  13. 13

    MamaGeek said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 8:33 am

    I am so so sincerely sorry. Please know you will all be in my thoughts and prayers.

  14. 14

    Lori said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 9:25 am

    Allison and Shannon, I know our words cant really help, but please know that we all feel such sorrow for what’s happened and I hope that someday you heal from this. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.

  15. 15

    Eva said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 9:31 am

    So sorry for your loss.

  16. 16

    Neenie said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 9:46 am

    I hate to keep commenting but I keep coming back to this page and letting these words hit me and I still just don’t believe it. I click on this page every 15 minutes and just stare at the words as if they weren’t there a minute ago. I thought of you and Zoe all night last night and cried for you. I looked at her pictures and saw how much she has changed in the last 3 weeks and how strong she has gotten, and how sweet she is. She is a gorgous baby girl and she and Lennox have touched me in an unbelievable way. You have mothered 2 miracles. And now they have both been taken from you and I am so so sorry. The hole will never be filled.
    It is so cruel and unfair and what you have gone through is worse than pure hell. This blog that you have started for Zoe is beautiful and I hope you keep it to honor her memory.
    Always in my heart and prayers…

  17. 17

    LauraC said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 9:46 am

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Your family is in our prayers.

  18. 18

    kate said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 9:55 am

    Oh, i am just so sorry. So so sorry. There really are no words.

    No, the hole left by Lennox and Zoe will never be filled. Please know i am thinking of you.

  19. 19

    Yoka said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:14 am

    I don’t know what to say. Words can’t express what you must be going through. I am so, so sorry for your loss.

    I am praying for your family.

  20. 20

    mrs spock said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:19 am

    I am so, so very sorry for the loss of both your son and daughter.

  21. 21

    kelsi said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:23 am

    I’m so, so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  22. 22

    Emilin said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:26 am

    My deepest sympathies. I am so incredibly sorry.

  23. 23

    Alexa said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:26 am

    Oh no, no, no. I am so sorry. I can’t imagine the depth of your grief. You will be in my thoughts.

  24. 24

    Kim said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:43 am

    I am so sorry. I stumbled onto your blog from “Twinkies”. I’m not a mom, but I can’t even imagine how hard it must be to lose two babies. Especially since Zoe was doing so well. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  25. 25

    Mel said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:46 am

    Josh and I are so sorry, S and A. We’re keeping your family in our thoughts.

  26. 26

    Lara said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:58 am

    My heart aches for you and your husband. I am just so very sorry.

  27. 27

    Cibele said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 11:00 am

    Oh no. no. no… I am shocked and heartbroken for you. i wish i had some words of confort. I’ll do the only thing i know to: I’ll pray for you my friend. I am so so sorry . My heart goes out to you and your family.

  28. 28

    Marcy said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 11:07 am

    There are no words to express the sorrow we are all feeling for you and Shannon right now. Please know we are here for you in any way possible and our hearts are breaking.

  29. 29

    Gretchen said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 11:24 am

    I am so sorry for you! Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

  30. 30

    Kelly said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 11:36 am

    I have been reading about your little ones for weeks and silently cheering for Zoe each day. I am so heartbroken for you and yours. My prayers are with you.

  31. 31

    Jen said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 12:01 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about this. I, like others, having been following the progress of your sweet angel. My heart aches for you and your family. You are in my prayers.

  32. 32

    Faith said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 12:13 pm

    shedding many tears for you. My heart hurts for you and your family.

  33. 33

    laura said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 12:47 pm

    oh i am so sorry. my heart is breaking for you.

  34. 34

    Kathy V said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 1:04 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. No words can express what I feel for you at this time. I am thinking about you and your husband.

  35. 35

    Hatchet said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 1:08 pm

    I am so sorry. My heart aches for your losses.

  36. 36

    Aleda said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 1:47 pm

    Allison, I am so very sorry and saddened by yours and Shannon’s loss. My heart goes out to you two. I am just in shock really. I hope that you both find peace and comfort for yourselves through all of this. Please know that we have all had you in our thoughts and prayers.

  37. 37

    cass said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 2:01 pm

    Oh, no no no no. I am holding you all in my thoughts. And crying.

    Sending lots of love from my little corner of the internets.

  38. 38

    Kim G said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 2:28 pm

    Adam and I are so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how hard this must be for you. You are in our hearts.

  39. 39

    kate(bee in the bonnet) said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 3:11 pm

    Sad. So very sad. I know that nothing in the world will fill that hole, but please know that a stranger is sending all the peace and love that she can to comfort you.
    I’m just so very sorry.

  40. 40

    Kelley Pippin said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 3:19 pm

    Words cannot express the sadness that I have for you and Shannon. I will pray that you two can find peace and strength to make it through this difficult time. I am touched that you shared your beautiful babies with me. Always keeping you and your family in my prayers.

  41. 41

    elizabeth said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 3:32 pm

    I am so very sorry. Your family will be in my prayers.

  42. 42

    Swistle said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 3:34 pm

    Oh no. No.

  43. 43

    Valerie said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 3:43 pm

    I am so very sorry. I will keep you all in my prayers.

  44. 44

    Claudia said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 3:56 pm

    No. No. No. No. Not Zoe too.

    This is too awful. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

  45. 45

    Sandra Hill said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 4:20 pm

    Allison, I am so sorry for your and your husband’s loss. It is such shocking news and such a devastating loss for the two of you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  46. 46

    Amy said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 6:40 pm

    I also stumbled on your blog from the Twinkies.

    I’d just like to express my deepest sympathies to you and your family. I can’t imagine how your heart must be aching. You will be in my prayers.

  47. 47

    Pann said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 8:08 pm

    No words here either. I am speechless in my sorrow for your loss.

  48. 48

    Julie C. said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 9:33 pm

    I’m so sorry.

  49. 49

    drea said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:28 pm

    I have been reading about you and your pregnancy for…. ever. I was delighted when you named your Zoe… because it means life. It means spiritual life.

    I am so sorry for your loss, for your tiny loves– they are beautiful.

  50. 50

    thalia said,

    January 25, 2008 @ 10:40 pm

    what an awful, awful thing to happen. I am very very sorry for your losses.

  51. 51

    Coley said,

    January 26, 2008 @ 8:43 am

    I don’t know you, but my prayers are with you and your family during this time.

  52. 52

    Jan said,

    January 26, 2008 @ 9:15 am

    “. . . sometimes the unfinished symphonies are the most beautiful . . .”

    Heartfelt sorrow.

  53. 53

    Ms. C said,

    January 26, 2008 @ 9:46 am

    I am so very sorry.
    You are in my thoughts…

  54. 54

    Duchess said,

    January 26, 2008 @ 1:45 pm

    There are no words to express my sorrow for your family during this time. My thoughts and prayers go out to you, your husband and your beautiful babies.

  55. 55

    meg said,

    January 26, 2008 @ 9:00 pm

    I am so sorry. I came over from your other blog to leave a comment here too. I just had to.

    There are so many people grieving with you around the world. I have read the comments here and I see how devastated everyone is. I know that knowledge cannot really give you any comfort, right now. Sadly, there are a lot of us, who have lost twins and who just know and understand. At least as much as we can.

    What a beautiful little girl. I just wanted to tell you that too. And that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

  56. 56

    Katie said,

    January 27, 2008 @ 10:32 am

    I found you through the Twinkies about 3 months ago, and I have been cheering your pregnancy on. I’m so sorry for both of your losses. I wish that I could give you a hug right now, and let you cry on my shoulder, vent to me, or scream. Life sucks. I’m so sorry.

  57. 57

    jano said,

    January 27, 2008 @ 3:58 pm

    No, no, no, not sweet little Zoe – she was such a fighter, and so loved.

    Little babies have so much future and so much promise, and losing them hurts more in some ways than losing someone who has had the opportunity to fulfil that promise.

    I wish you enough strength to get through this. You have created a beautiful memorial to your lovely babies and they have touched people all over the world. Thank you for sharing Zoe’s and Lennox’s too-short lives with us.

  58. 58

    Ann said,

    January 27, 2008 @ 7:02 pm

    I am just so sorry.

  59. 59

    Heather said,

    January 28, 2008 @ 9:57 am

    I am so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  60. 60

    Terrie Scholl said,

    January 28, 2008 @ 12:19 pm

    As I try to see the screen through my tears, my face is wet, my chest is hollow, and I know your sorrow is so very much bigger than the piece I feel for you and your family. You fought hard for her because that’s what parents do. The intense love, fear, hope, sadness, and all the other emotions that moms and dads feel, you have squeezed into just a few weeks. It will always be a part of you as will Zoe and Lennox.

    I have a picture of you dressed for a dance wearing a beautiful white dress. You are looking into your Dad’s camera…. smiling, brown eyes bright with anticipation and innocence. You will smile again but never with the innocence of youth. That’s not a bad thing because your next smile will reflect all that you have become…and include Zoe and Lennox, too.

    You have loved and your pain shared if not lifted from your heart and shoulders.
    Mrs. S

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